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Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 22 Dec 2008 Posts: 2173

((Yay! 75 days, and enough money saved up to buy enough green silk for the dress Smile

As for my hair.... Sad

Maybe I should just get used to shaving my head. I really need something else for my hands to play or fidget with.))

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Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 06 Feb 2007 Posts: 648

Fantastic, Caroline! Smile

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 15 Feb 2007 Posts: 4668

I can't understand why you're having such a hard time with your hair, Caroline. Unless I just missed it and am mistaken, you don't want to be bald. You would like your hair back. So stop cutting your hair or shaving your head. I have'nt had a haircut in three years, so believe me when I say it's not that hard not to cut your hair. Unless I just missed something and you want to be bald? Then just disregard everything I just said.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 22 Dec 2008 Posts: 2173

((Ash,

It's a mix of things. Part of the reason is spite. Work wants me to look "girly.". Part of it is impatience. Part of it is the fact the whole look still feels "new" to me. But mostly it's an old nervous twitch. I'd get nervous, and I'd fidget with my hair. I don't have hair, which gets me mad at myself, which makes me shave my head again as a punishment of sorts for trying to cut it to begin with.

If that makes any sense. ))

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 15 Feb 2007 Posts: 4668

In a nonsense way, yes.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 22 Dec 2008 Posts: 2173

((Ashton,

I really don't appreciate the condescending tone of your last post. I know my thoughts and reasons aren't the best; however that doesn't make then nonsense.))

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 15 Feb 2007 Posts: 4668

I'm sorry, Caroline, it was meant to be in good humor, not condescending. My mother speaks in nonsense ways and I've learned to understand it and find the humor in it. Otherwise, she'd drive me more insane than she already does. But I assure you, I meant it in good humor.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 22 Dec 2008 Posts: 2173

((Ash,

Sorry about being moody, and misreading your post.

I'm glad you were just being a tease. I can be kinda dense sometimes. ))

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 15 Feb 2007 Posts: 4668

It's quite alright, Caroline, I'm used to being misunderstood. No harm done, I assure you.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 22 Dec 2008 Posts: 2173

((Well, so far, so good for 2010. Two days into the new year, and I haven't had one smoke yet.))

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 29 May 2009 Posts: 6010

Good luck Caroline. You are very capable and strong willed enough to do anything you set your mind to.

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Ever read "Holes"? You could try chewing sunflower seeds lol

*I am the Guy with the dumb opinion*

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 22 Dec 2008 Posts: 2173

((Well, only two more days and I'll have made it to day 100 of my no smoking adventure.

And... wow am I really jonesing for a smoke right now.

Ugh, it's weird. Some days I'm fine, and other days it's like I'm clawing at the walls due to a need of nicotine. I didn't realize I had this much stored in my fatty-tissues and liver... stupid liver. *points at liver* Detox faster!... yeah, that was a lot funnier when I said it aloud to myself, and made the pointing motion... in text... not so much.

Still, Bean says that I don't get the dress till I reach day 200 of not smoking... *pouts* I really want my dress.

Oh, Max, I'm not much of a sunflower / gum chewer kinda person. *shrug* I just find it... a kinda gross habit. Which is weird, as I love spitting watermellon seeds.))

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 15 Feb 2007 Posts: 4668

Then maybe you should buy watermelon in bulk and spit seeds at passersby instead.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 23 Jan 2009 Posts: 1120

keep chewing stuff. like fruits. the sweet taste will make the taste of smoke goes away

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 28 Mar 2007 Posts: 2112

Wait, it's been over three months and you're still suffering from withdrawl?

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 15 Feb 2007 Posts: 4668

It's said you never really stop smoking or wanting to smoke. A prime example: my mother smoked for years, even when she was pregnant with me, then stopped for my entire life. (at least, as far as I know) And now, within the past few months, she's started smoking again like she'd been doing it all along. It does'nt surprise me at all to hear Caroline would still have the craving.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 28 Mar 2007 Posts: 2112

Yeah, you still have a craving, that's part of what addiction is. But the body's physical desire for more of the drug shouldn't last that long. It shoudn't take more than a couple of weeks for your body to flush it's system of (in this case) nicotine. The only drug I can think of which is more or less impossible to get out of your system is LSD and that's because it collects in your spinal fluid. One of the big problems with quiting smoking, as Caroline has pointed out, is that it becomes a habit. you're doing something, with your hands especially, while you're indulging and when you quit, and it's even worse quitting cold turkey, the sudden loss of that little fidgety action is suddenly one of the most noticible things. I'm just surprised that she still has the nicotine craving after so long.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 22 Dec 2008 Posts: 2173

((I really don't know why i have it either, Xebulon, as it should all be out of my system.

Um... maybe it's like sex or something. When you have it, it's good. But when you don't... you always seem to want it. dry

well... that sounded a lot funnier when I said it aloud to myself. I hope the humor made it through onto the text.

To Kiala:

Well, I have been eating a lot of blueberries and raspberries lately, which do help.))

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 22 Dec 2008 Posts: 2173

((Woot!!! Still keeping up the no smoking.

Growl!!! But stupid pandemonium has got to go, and now my money I was saving up for my Suiseiseki dress I have to use to buy another computer. I think maybe this time I'll name it something different. I can't seem to trust computers named pandemonium.))

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Or maybe you could name the next one "Pandora"?

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FurAffinity · Rank: Super Veteran Joined: 03 Feb 2010 Posts: 6190

i feel your pain dear i couldn't stop smoking while i was pregnant and i knew what it was doing to me and my daughter it wasn't until i was in the hospital for four days after she was born that i was able to quit finally ...my SO is still struggling with quitting and it has been 10+ months since i stopped now the smell of ciggs sicken me and i wounder why i ever did it in the first place

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 22 Dec 2008 Posts: 2173

((It's been over a month since my last update, and so I thought I'd let you know how things are going over here.

Not only do I now have Dreamquest of Unknown Kadath, and my new, green, dress, I've still been able to keep myself from smoking. So... woot for me Smile

))

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 29 May 2009 Posts: 6010

(Thats good news Caroline.)