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Rank: Artist Joined: 02 May 2007 Posts: 309

I had a heavy bronchitises the past weeks and having a heavy art block.
It's also right now not going well with me, I have lots of fights with my mother and my grandmother lately...
It depresses me a lot and I barely have any strength to do anything lately...

I feel really unhappy right now... Also I'm getting sick as we speak again...
I'm stuck with the story for Pleasure Bon Bon, since I have to remove PahefimTjaat.
But Vanessa told me to contact Martin to discuss what we can do to keep this comic running... So I will do that, I'm really really truly sorry for the delay...

I just don't know right now what to do...

I give an example of what happened today...

I tell my mother that I don't feel good lately, like I have no more reason to live. I feel like I'm waiting just to die... I said

She gave me sleeping pills to end it...

That hurt me so much, I never expected that. Instead of listening how I feel, like I do with her... She just...

It hurts... ................

Sorry... I'll get better... But I feel right now, so weak...
I just don't know what I have to do anymore..

- Pahe

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 15 Feb 2007 Posts: 4668

I'm terribly sorry to hear that, Carrie, I truly am. I know, to some extent, what you are going through right now so let me give you some advice to help you through this. First off, forget about that woman that dared call herself your mother. Just toss her out the window, goodbye, along with anyone or anything making you feel in any way bad. (Not literally, of course) Secondly, let yourself feel sick, don't push yourself to hard to deal with other things. Take some medicine, get some rest, see a doctor if you have to. Thirdly, focus on the good, fun things you have and do in your life and do them. It's best if these are easy things to do, I find. Watch your favorite, non-sad, non-scary movies, read your favorite books, play your favorite games, eat your favorite foods, any or all of the afore mentioned or anything I left out but do them. Don't go crazy with them and end up straining, hurting or making yourself more sick but you get the idea, I'm sure. And lastly, after you start feeling a bit better, find out what is making you feel this way and deal with it, end it, put it to bed and move on with a smile on your face. These are the things I did and they worked for me, as well as many other people I've helped through this sort of thing. Don't give up, don't focus on the bad things just because you feel bad and trust that you and everything around you will end up better than before and you'll be fine. Oh, and destroy those damnable sleeping pills that woman gave you. Pour them on the ground and stomp them to dust. You'll feel great afterward. I've got all sorts of helpful things you can do to help yourself feel better. Just say the word and they're yours for the using. Now come here...*hugs Carrie*...and show us all that chipper, joyful and energetic smile we've all come to know and love.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 21 Aug 2007 Posts: 836

hey try to feel better and remember you will always have us

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 27 Jul 2005 Posts: 2568

*cuddles the poor thing in his arms* Poor Carrie.

If I had the mind and means, I'd fly over there just to hug you and make it better. You will always have us to turn to and comfort.

"...Uninspired. Oh does it help you to, know that I believe in you.
Your an angel, waiting for wings..."

^_^

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Sorry to hear- I hope you feel better.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 12 Jul 2007 Posts: 671

All the good feelings I have I give to you. Feel better!

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 09 Jan 2007 Posts: 1556

I'm sorry to hear as well. Don't push yourself too much. We all wish you a quick recovery.

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If there is anything that we here can do for you Carrie, anything at all, you know that you have but to ask.

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I believe that Xebulon has spoken for the whole of us, Carrie.

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Don't worry.

Even in situations like this, you should try to smile and think positive.

Rank: Artist Joined: 22 Jun 2007 Posts: 417

I am so sorry to hear it Carrie <( I just wonder why didn't you tell me this *hugs*, you know i always am on messenger. I told you few times to dump those bad people around you, or at least ignore them and do things for yourself for once, you can't allow yourself to be used and then just abused like that. Too bad I can't tell you anything more to add this to Ashton's speech, he said practically all already, and i think you should listen to him.
I really wish i could help you somehow, just say and i try and do so if my abilities allow *snuggles*

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 21 Aug 2007 Posts: 836

Carrie i'm not as good with words as some of the others here but i would like to say this... no matter what happens we've got your back, and we will be here for you as long as we are needed

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May you find some comfort in this song Carrie. Know in your heart we're praying and hoping that things will be better for you.

"Sittin' in the rain, water on your brain, got a hole in your boat.
Trying to stay afloat. . has got you do~wn.
I've got a wind in my sail, rubber boots and a pail, I'll throw you a line.
Rest assured that I. . won't ever let you dro~wn

'Cause when you're up against the wall you know I'll be here for you,
For Yo~u!
When you rise and when you fall I'll always be here for you,
For Yo~u!"

(the "~" is a held note in text. Yo~u is the equivalent of saying Yoooou)

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*Bows on the incredible song*

Rank: Artist Joined: 02 May 2007 Posts: 309

Thanks guys...

it's still not going good right now T__T
But i'll take your advice *grouphug*

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*Hugs back*

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 12 Feb 2007 Posts: 612

*Silently lowers a chain of lightly colored blooms over Carrie's head to hang from her neck. Their delicate scent enveloping her, soothing...as his hands rest on her shoulders, a gentle squeeze in reassurance. He says nothing, only offering a warm, caring presence for as long as needed.*

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 28 Mar 2007 Posts: 2112

*bear hugs*

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 27 Jul 2005 Posts: 2568

Your gonna give those out every chance you get won't you Xebulon?

From one man of passion to another, nicely done MrWolf12.

And Carrie, hopefully things will get better before you know it! *Wraps her in warmth and love* I hope my message got through to you.

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I'm afraid my response has been delayed so long as to seem superfluous. Still, you certainly have my support, Carrie. It is sometimes so easy to feel poorly. And it's outrage to see a parent betray a daughter's trust. Do take care of yourself. Very Happy

Besides, the world needs you. You're a vixen. The world would not be as great as it is without vixens. Cool

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Erf, I'm pretty late, too, but I will definately echo the sentiments above. If you need anything, count me among the people more than willing to be there for you.