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Rank: Veteran Joined: 15 Jan 2011 Posts: 726

Long Time no see. I pop on here less and less, everything is just weighing me down. I just wanted to get some thoughts out, somewhere. Here they are.

Sometimes, I wonder, what my future's going to be like. I've been in University for a couple of months now, and that's been tough. I've struggled through, just about, even though Student finance keeps messing up. *I'll get my money in January, hopefully*, I've had people to help me out though. But anyways. I still go out from time to time, to clubs and such, and friends, and other guys will pay for my drinks, and that's great, but I know at the end of the night, they're just wanting to fuck me. And that's something I don't want to lower myself to.

I'm tired of hoping to find someone to have a meaningful relationship with, and them either not liking me, or them just 'lusting' over me. I feel like sometimes, I need someone there, but there just isn't. It gets lonely at night.

Having said that, there have been many guys since I've moved, older guys, that have tried to grab me, so in the same sense, I just don't feel that safe. I'm not that strong, and the only reason I've been able to get away, is that I'm close to my accommodation, I have a [word censored] alarm, and I bite very hard when defending myself.

I guess, with all the stress with money, University, keeping up with dancing, cooking, cleaning, trying to maintain my own living environment, I'd just like someone that I can be with, who can hold me, and care.

It's a shame that won't happen for a long time.

There sure are plenty of lonely nights ahead..

Luna.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 20 Oct 2009 Posts: 12351

Not much I can really think to say, but sometimes just a simple hug can say much more than words.

*hugs Luna*

Rank: Veteran Joined: 15 Jan 2011 Posts: 726

I think what I hate the most is the hugs aren't real. I've been told I've gotten prettier recently. Maybe it's my red hair, and the fact I cut it short. But I can't seem to keep guys off me >< I don't want to be named the village bike. I'll pass.. heh.

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 20 Oct 2009 Posts: 12351

That's one thing I don't much like about hugs over the net. They lack the sympathetic expression that a real hug can convey. As for getting prettier, maybe. Personally I've always found you to be very pretty.

Rank: Veteran Joined: 15 Jan 2011 Posts: 726

Thanks. Perhaps it's a level of maturity. My.. breasts have grown a tad? Maybe that's it. I look more proportioned. I dunno. But thankyou.

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/arcsol/ · Rank: Super Veteran Joined: 28 Aug 2011 Posts: 1386

That's what sucks about internet in general you can almost never tell a persons emotions on here.

Rank: Veteran Joined: 15 Jan 2011 Posts: 726

I'm one of the few that is open with my emotions.
If I'm happy, I will Talk like this!! ^-^ ;D
And If I'm serious, or generally talking, it's like this.
And If I'm sad, I'd use a lotta >< faces.

So, as far as online expression goes, it doesn't far differ from my own in reality.

Oh boy, big words, xD

Royal Member of BonBon Joined: 20 Oct 2009 Posts: 12351